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[09 Jun 2007|03:20pm] |
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Joel Plaskett and Amy Winehouse are good times.
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[09 Dec 2006|10:33pm] |
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I have a lady boner for Vince Vaughn and egg nog lattés from Starbucks are the beesknees (with a little bit of sugar though!).
Christmas is coming. I'm excited! Things are well here in Meagan land. Trying to lose (more) weight. Its coming along, erm, alright? I've plateaued over the past few months and haven't gained it back thankfully. Woot!
I've got a rock on my finger :)
No date yet. We'll do it after school. I haven't made a big deal about it, or told anyone (what can I say, I'm modest?). I'd rather tell people when we've set a date and all that jazz. We're not going anywhere. The proposal wasn't done all fancy like 'coz we've been talking about the 'm' word for a year now and considering how well we've been over the past few months since our breakup, theres no chance I'm letting this boy go <3
I need to go back to school, mayhaps business marketting in January to pass the time until the paramedics program in September. Who knows??
Life is good, just kind of drifting. I'm at a mildly happy place right now :)
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[03 Nov 2006|01:27am] |
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Holy cow, hi @ first entry in forever x2!
This whole "moving" thing is for the birds. I really don't like it.
Makes me sad to think that we're getting rid of this house. I love it, and I'll miss it, and it won't be the same if my parents move to that shitty ass bungalo across town. :(
I'm complaining about something that really doesn't matter, and its superficial and matieralistic of me, but hot damn. Argh.
I don't have the time that I'd like lately. With the hours I'm putting in between the YMCA and Best Buy I am working full time, but with travel/down time that I have between shifts, it feels like I'm working 12 hour days sometimes. I'm up at 8 every morning, which feels good. I haven't done that since I was in highschool, 'coz college I could get away with sleeping in a few days out of the week with late afternoon classes. I just feel more drained than anything, so therefore the antisocial behavior sets in. I'd rather sit at home and lounge about for the hour or so before I crawl into bed than to drive to hang out with friends. Granted, I miss people, I just can't afford the lack of sleep. Getting old sucks too. Boo.
And speaking of school, I still haven't the slightest what I want to take. I have to figure out soon, otherwise I'm fucked. I have to go back, I want to go back (even more importantly). After working full time again for the first time since Convergys I crave further knowledge and a better education. I think the paramedics program at Niagara is going to be best, in spite of my previous comments about hating said college. Perhaps I'm rationalizing my own fears, but staying home and at least moving into my own place in the region will be less traumatic than removing myself entirely from this area to live alone where I know absolutely noone.
I've been very bitter lately. I don't know whats causing it, I just don't want it to develop into hatred. I'm still managing to be kind to people, keeping a positive attitude, etc. I just feel hollow sometimes. I don't like it, hopefully it will disappear, but who knows. I even suspect it could be from the inconsisitency and lack of stability (through outside sources as well as my own attitudes, etc.). The whole moving/not moving, school/no school, dichotomy bullshit could fuck with someones guts.
Anyhow, on a lighter note I'm obsessed with Sex and the City. I'm actually shocked how good the show is and how clever it is, too. Work tomorrow morning, and I'm still hopped up on caffine from earlier, wee!
Hope your lives are treating you well, although for the most part I know they are as I still read everybody's updates, inspite of making my own.
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[12 Oct 2006|03:45pm] |
hilarity
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[29 Aug 2006|10:23pm] |
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Clearing everyone out.
Starting from scratch.
It sucks, but it has to be done.
I love the friends I still hold close.
I strongly dislike everybody else. Nobody is reliable anymore.
Day 1 at Best Buy tomorrow. Wish me luck.
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[22 Aug 2006|01:33am] |
Just when I think things might start to get better. I'm rudely awakened.
You're better off without me. I'm nothing. You're everything, and I'm just a path leading to nowhere. Don't ever think that you need to get me back, because its not true. You're the world and I'm just a minor piece of bullshit.
I hate myself right now.
And yes, I know how fucking negative all of this sounds.
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[20 Aug 2006|11:11pm] |
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I need to find my happy place.
I always get bummed out at the end of the summer.
I should be fine right now. I got that new job at Best Buy. But for some reason I've been Debbie Downer.
Although I determine my own level of happiness because its not what people do or how things turn out, its your reaction towards them.
Ugh.
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[17 Aug 2006|12:33pm] |
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So... I deleted myspace.
I'm also about this close from deleting LJ, too.
I don't use it for anything constructive, the drama is fucking ridiculous, and its a horrible excuse not to call up a friend.
[ie; "I leave people myspace comments because its easier" "I like reading people's LJ posts so I know whats going on in their life even though I don't talk to them every day"]
People love to lurk. They want something juicy to read. I'm guilty.
Shower, nap, eyebrow waxing, manicure, then job interview at Best Buy.
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[04 Aug 2006|01:56pm] |
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Stace and Meagan Do The South '06 T-minus 2 weeks and counting.
Are you ready?!
Didn't think so suckafaces.
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[24 Jul 2006|04:13am] |
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Its weird. Sometimes the most unlikely people can bring a smile to your face.
I miss some friends. If only I wasnt such a hermit sometimes. Ha.
Brand new week. I hope this one doesn't drag on like the last.
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[23 Jul 2006|10:54pm] |
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Proof yet again that if I hold no expectations for people, I won't be disappointed.
I got bailed on tonight and it sucks.
Especially because its still early enough to go out, but too late that everybody else is already doing something. Ugh.
Shoot me please?
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[19 Jul 2006|04:50pm] |
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Really gloomy day today, in spite of the sun shining.
It was my great aunt Betty's funeral service. My uncle said a few words, it wasnt anything too formal.
We had the family back here for fingerfood and drinks.
On the burrial plot it said "Betty Effie Clatney" with the word "Sisters" right below it. All I could think of was my Nana. I miss her so much. It was the first time I visited her since she passed.
It was also the first time I went to see Joey. Its his birthday soon. I miss him.
Today sucks.
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[15 Jul 2006|07:28pm] |
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I hate not being sure of a sure thing.
Love is a sick twisted joke someone played on another person and apprently nobodys caught on.
I hate feeling like my heart is in my throat. It hurts to breath.
I'm such a bummer today.
I put a pantload of highlights in my hair. Proof that physical or material changes don't make you any happier.
I want to get out tonight, but I have a gut feeling thats not going to happen anytime soon.
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[03 Jul 2006|06:46pm] |
So its really sad that we live in a time where the more you bitch, the better you're rewarded.
I've never had one of those "I hate my cell phone company" kinda days, until today.
Although now I'm a proud owner of the Motorola ROKR with iTunes.
I'm happy to say that I didn't bitch, or raise my voice, I was just persistant. Although I'm sure if I put up enough of a fuss, I could have got it for free. But I'm not like that, yah hurr?
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[27 Jun 2006|01:03pm] |
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I'm feeling restless in this town of nothingness.
Get me out.
I want out.
Just with the blink of an eye be somewhere else.
I'm about this close from starting to look for job postings in and around the United States (and possibly Europe).
Don't be upset when the day comes I up and leave, 'coz don't say I didn't warn ya.
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[08 Jun 2006|03:50pm] |
bored bored bored.
i wanna go do something fun tonight.
anyone with me?
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[01 May 2006|01:31pm] |
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Andy took me out for lunch today to perkins. T'was pretty damn tastey!
We went to the pen really quick and i picked up a few things.
I got myself Vitamin E lotion for my stretch marks (yuck, too much information, I know, it works though, right? Anyone know?), facial cleansing cloths and moisturizer for my face. Oh, I also picked up Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk and A Dirty Job by Christopher Moore. Yes, I judged the book by its cover. Apparently its about a guy who recently has a baby but one day just wakes up with random names scribbled down by his bedside table and soon after they turn up dead.
Should be interesting.
I watched all three movies.
Daltry Calhoun was a good one. Sweet story, nothing sensational.
Lord of War was fantastic. Great story, perfect plot. I think Jared Leto plays great supporting roles. (ie; Lord of War, Fight Club and Requiem for a Dream)
Waiting was average. Funny, but not as funny as I was hoping. Still enjoyed it though.
Today is dragging on.
This is the most pointless post ever.
TV time.
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[29 Apr 2006|04:33pm] |
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Slowly but surely I'm losing weight (and keeping it off).
I've lost about 10 pounds over the past few weeks from cutting out different foods. Whole wheat, fresh fruit, lots of veggies, no more startches, refined sugars (ie; candy, pop, fruit juice).
Drinking lots of water and crystal light. Its a tubby health nut's crack cocaine, for real.
Orange strawberry banana = bomb diggity.
I got my cardigans yesterday, they're gorgeous.
I wore one last night when we went out.
I've been feeling like crap lately. Emotionally and physically.
We went out to redsquare and mansion house, I was in a crummy mood for the first little while at RS but then I just faked it til I made it sorta deal.
I woke up this morning with only a few hours of sleep with an aweful cough and body aches (no, I didnt drink that much, and no, those still arent symptoms of my hangovers.)
Didn't even make practice today (sorry again Kitty), I ended up going back to bed and waking up again at 2:55pm.
I've got an eventful night of laying in bed and watching movies. I also have to haul ass to Niagara Falls later on tonight to pick my parents up from some fancy gala event. $150 all you can eat seafood event with an open bar. Too. Fucking. Lucky.
I wanna go.
But instead I'll sit at home and watch movies.
I got;
-Waiting
-Daltry Calhoun (with Johnny Knoxville, apparently Tarantino had a hand in it, producing or what have you. But then again, he helped with Hostel, so thats not saying much, but anyhow, anyone seen it?)
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-Lord of War (<3 Nick Cage)
I think I'm going to go dive into Daltry Calhoun first while I'm still awake and alert.
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[26 Apr 2006|07:10pm] |
#$%#$)(*!#$%)*
my cardigans are expected to arrive tomorrow! wee! :D
tonight was sweet. i miss baseball. except the part where i suck at hitting.
got my income tax back yesterday. $1000 cash money. booyah bitches.
andrew and i are going to see the bluejays play in a couple of weeks. gonna go to the 7:oo game and then the 12:3o the following day. should be good times!
wee!
everything is grand! OH! and i might get a job at petland in st. catharines. WEEEEEE! PUPPIES! i love puppies.
okay, xlarge coffee kickin in.
gotta go pick up carl vonjones
see yous!
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[16 Apr 2006|08:14pm] |
Notice:
For those of you used to my common rants and raves found in this journal, check out my blog on myspace.com.
I probably have you on there.
Give'er. C'mon.
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